Friday, June 27, 2003

living off of red bull and excedrin

so today is going to be a pretty busy day, which is good because i think it'll make me feel alive.

i wrote an ugly paragraph here and erased it.

Sunday, June 15, 2003

i'm such a dissapointment.
i can't handle 6 hours. what is wrong with me?
i hate my job, and i can't keep my room clean. what type of moron can't keep their room clean?
it's a disaster area and it makes me want to pull my hair out.

today was one of those where i almost put my two weeks in.
i knew i had a cat for a good reason.

Saturday, June 14, 2003

due to an infestation of fruit flies

i heard the worst joke today.

"what's the fastest animal?"

"chicken. what's the second fastest?"

"an ethiopian chasing a chicken."

i said "chickens aren't fast."

what else would you say to a joke like that? first of all, it's absolutely awful... i'm not one for offensive jokes. second of all, i still don't get the chicken thing. they aren't fast and it's a stupid joke.

"how does it feel to be the minority?"
how many times do i get that question? ( i don't) well, i got it today after everyone realized that i was the only caucasian working. it is true though, that here in the heart of redneck alabama, i was the only white person working [at this particular restaurant, naturally]. one of the cooks is now selling fireworks. one of those places on the side of the road with the big signs advertising fireworks, you know what i'm talking about. so for the past two days of chronic boredom and a trunk full of fireworks, we've spend a lot of time out back watching the cooks and bus boys run after each other with firecrackers, bottle rockets, and such. they disguise their interest by saying they're showing us.I know we're not supposed to talk about this and the cooks regret letting a waitress in on the information [god forbid] but the cops showed up at the back of the restaurant today about all the fireworks. i don't even know the story, but i know they showed up. they told me not to let any of the other waitresses know, so don't tell anybody.

i don't understand people who drive nissan maximas and seem to refuse to slide the nissan emblem cover over the trunk keyhole. you've probably seen it around. the nissan emblem is used to cover the keyhole and it slides to the left and i have never seen a maxima driver with the keyhole covered. is it really that hard to slide the cover over? it must be if no one does it, but it really pisses me off. don't they know they're throwing their entire car off balance not to mention they're making a decent car look very disorderly. please, if you drive a maxima, spare the rest of us and just cover the keyhole.

Thursday, June 12, 2003

my site needs a makeover, badly
the object of my desire is a feeling. i am ready to feel happy with myself. i am ready to feel good about what i am doing when i wake up in the morning. i want to not have to resort to sleeping all the time to escape my responsibilities and ill feelings.

p.s. i really want to figure out how to get my digital camera pics on here. i'll do that soon.

Saturday, June 07, 2003


good thing we took the dogs out when we did.

i was going to go out and check on the jobs for which i applied, but it's raining now and i can't decide if that's an excuse to stay in or not.

it's already stopped raining. i guess i am out of excuses.

Thursday, June 05, 2003

small town. a guy i served the other night at the restaurant, he was with his father, well he delivered my kitchen table and free baker's rack today.

Wednesday, June 04, 2003

my sister is competing again. [good thing]